How important it is to be best friends with someone you
love? It must be a blessing to experience those weird, amazing and regretful
moments in life of being in love with a best friend, where you think “OMG! What
an ass I am?” and yet, “Oh dear, mom would be so happy to meet her someday!”
Those moments when she must have left 10 urgent messages on
your cell phone and when you called back, she spent two hours painstakingly
dissecting those few hurting sentences her boyfriend said to her over their
date. And even though you knew her boyfriend was a bloody lunkhead and jerk,
you assured her that it was all okay and they were meant for each other. How
tough could it be to say these words to a girl you love with all your heart, to
the girl you feel is everything to you?
Those moments when she was low with her health, or down
because of a fight with her room-mate and you were supposed to be there cheering
her up and saying stupid, illogical things to make her laugh. From those play
stations to girl problems, sharing everything from top to bottom and still
feeling that the conversation could have stretched for the whole night if it wasn't for her college next morning, although not acknowledging a kind of
important fact, that you had given up a large chunk of your
family/studying/work time for those hours of her ‘cheering up’.
Those moments when she had a boyfriend, who did not like you
and yet she met you. Feeling of being obliged by her gesture of meeting you for
a few hours without letting he boyfriend know, those secret meetings, those
beautiful hangout places you never imagined could exist and some stupid places which would not have been
any fun had she not been there by your side. And when she would unknowingly or
unintentionally, put her hand around your shoulder or her hair would touch your
face in the auto-rickshaw, she would continue with her talks and you would be
lost in the thoughts of spending the rest of the life like that.
Those moments when she would take you to a shady cafe, and though
there is nothing “serious” between you two, she flirts with you naughtily and
shamelessly which somehow you happen to love beyond levels. You don’t like the
beer there, you hate the music, the food ordered is now cold because of the
complete ignorance by its buyers, but still you love the whole setting, because
she makes it complete. And you punch
your fist in the air in your heart and feel “Oh god, I am on top of the world,
she has come out with ME!”
Those moments when she is rude and you take it in a stride,
when she lets out her anger of others on you and you accept it with a smile,
when she abuses you or lets you down, when she makes you feel neglected in a
group of few people, when she doesn't acknowledge you in front of her other
friends, when she doesn't want people to know about being superbly close to
you, when she chooses not to talk to you just because “she doesn't feel like”,
when she wants an answer to everything and never consider her duty to answer to
your questions ever, when she replies with a “Not possible right now”, to your
“Can we talk? I really need to...”, although she doesn't realize that it was
because you felt lonely, and then you cried all night long. Yet, you love
her...
Those moments when you were sitting on a comfortable couch
with her and she was telling a long boring story about some classmate of hers
and then you realize that you two were very close. You have your hand around
her shoulder and she is resting her head on your arm, you move back her hair
and smell them with amazement and caution of not being intoxicated. She suddenly realises the same and looks up
at you... your eyes meet, you can feel her hot, nervous breath on your neck...
her heartbeat is almost pounding and then... you touch her lips with yours.
It’s a comfortable 5 second long kiss, and you feel you have touched a soul. A
moment which made you feel that you have lived a few lives already. A moment
you know you will cherish all life long... yet, there is nothing “serious”
between you two...
You love her and she loves you back. You have expressed it
and so she has. You have been best friends without the care of the world around
since ages. But nothing can happen at the moment considering the shackles and
obstacles of life. You both are mature, you both are individuals and yet, you
know that someday, some time in future, you will be together...
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